Sunday, May 13, 2012

Happy Birthday Kaiden

To The boy who made me a mom,

5 years ago today I gave birth to my heart who would forever walk around outside of my body in the form of my beautiful boy. My dream as a child was to grow up to become a mom. From the moment I dressed up my dolls and cradled them in my arms, I longed to someday be called "mom". On this date 5 years ago you made that wish come true. The past five years have tested me, taught me, strengthened me and amazed me in so many ways. It is an incredible gift to be given the chance to view the world through the eyes of a child and being a mom is that opportunity. I hope that daddy and I are teaching you what it is to love with all of your heart and love without judgement and accept all the differences in the world. We hope that you will grow to be independent and strong but will always need us in your life and will always want us in your life. My wish for you is that you will cherish your childhood memories and will go on to have children of your own and will pass along your wonderful compassion and big beautiful heart. I hope your 5th birthday party was everything you wanted and that you will look back with happiness and joy. Although I tried to make a deal with you to stay 5 forever I know that you will grow up and someday I will look back on how much fun we had and how much excitement and joy you experienced on this day. I love you to the moon and back, Happy 5th birthday..
Love mom

The Birthday Boy
 The Cake!
 Cupcakes
 Spare Tire donuts
 Monster Truck set up!
 Loot bags
 Decor
 License plate place settings
 The birthday boy shirt
 Monster truck arena with cookie crub "dirt" and licorice "tires"

Saturday, May 5, 2012

April showers bring may flowers

May is a busy busy month for us with some tough moments but also some wonderful ones as well. I have been busy planning my boy's 5th birthday party and cannot wait to celebrate with him.
Yesterday was my Nan's birthday. It is a hard day as I long so much to call her up to wish her happy birthday and to take her for ice cream to celebrate. Grief is a funny thing, it has no timeline and somedays the ache remains fresh and raw and somedays we can smile and remember and feel our loved ones so close. We took Avarie for her first ice cream cone yesterday which was a perfect day and a perfect way to honour my nan on her birthday. She loved ice cream and would often suggest it instead of a meal! I miss her so much it hurts but I know that she is with us and shows us in many different ways.