T'was the night before Kindergarten...

Well..it's the night before the first day of school. Before I start..full disclosure that this might get over the top sappy and emotional, but hey, that's me and I find writing to be therapeutic so here goes:

Today we set out to have a light and fun day and we succeeded. We asked Kaiden if he could do anything today what would it be? He said go to the white playground with the green dragon (aka Westfield). We piled in the truck and off we went. We had a great time and he was pleased with his choice. Daddy took him for a haircut and then we made our way home to pack his bookbag, pick out his clothes and pack his lunch. We went over his lunch notes to remind him of what they say (he is still learning reading but recognizes "I love you" and "Have a good day"). He was quiet and broke my heart just a tad when he asked if I could stay with him tomorrow (sob) but said he is very excited. We read "The night before Kindergarten" and he asked questions about what would be there and if there would be naps (and as I fully admitted to the facebook world..I sobbed on and off during the book). I cuddled with him and let a few tears escape as I held him and wondered how I can let him grow. He is such an old soul and a sweet kind hearted boy, and as his mommy I worry. I worry that he will be scared when I am not there and I worry that others will be unkind. I worry about bullies and also worry that he will be afraid and I will not be there to hold his hand. My heart hurts thinking of my first born..the boy who made me a mom..letting go of my hand and beginning the journey called school. I hope that his teacher is nice and thinks about what an important job she has and what an important role she will have in my child's life. Time to take a deep breath and put a stop to these tears because I know that my kid will rock school just as he rocked preschool and without a doubt my kid will move moutains...